thinking of the lady!

 I just threw up. I mix pills and whine and threw up all over my neighbors shrub. i think its a shrub it mite be a bush. or a midget tree. oh well. its 80 degrees out at midnight(really i just checked)...its weird but i feel warm for once. i'm not sure if its the weather or the self medicating thats making me warm. either way i like it. 

  my hands wont stop shaking, im not sure why. and my eyes refuse to focus for more than a few seconds at a time.

i cant stop think of the lady!! ha the lady my old boyfriend used to call it that...when i first started i would just call it heroin, but after you really start to use. when you really start to get to know the drug it develops a personality(much like anorexia thus the name ana) so i started calling it the lady as well. anywho getting off track. i miss my sweet evil lady so much!

i miss how every noise sounds like it coming threw a tunnel. 

 i miss how i feel like i'm watching a movie when really i'm just watching people

i miss the way my body tingles

 i miss the feeling rite after you sniff the lady

i miss the way it feels when someone touches you

 i miss the way it makes me feel beautiful!

i miss her so bad!

ok now i'm rabaling so i'll say goodnight 

-S

p.s my j key is all fucked up and i have to smash it like a million time for it to work! its super frustrating..but it is kinda my fault for spilling tea on the computer oops