Hello

Its been something like 6 months sense I last posted. I doubt I'll ever post after this. I'm moving on with my life. At least I'm trying too. I weigh 110 pounds. And I'm HAPPY with every single pound of it. I'm graduating high school early after this summer I'll only be in high school for 4 months. Then I'm free from school. After that I'm moving to Sweden to live with my uncle, and become a live in nanny.  Life is good, its hard, a constant struggle, but still good. I just wanted to leave this last post letting anyone who might drop by know that I'm safe, and healthy. And getting on with my life.
I know its hard, to eat. But life is so much better now. I'd never try to preach to you, or force you into anything. when your read know that it will be hard, but its worth it. To live! Please my beautiful ladys, don't waste your precious lives. I love every one of you, because your so strong. And so brave, and so beautiful!

Live your life for you, and be happy for you!

Do whats best for YOU!

Love S

never enough, a new me

a great girl and one of my favorite bloggers suggest making a new blog for the new me. and i love the idea so girls come over to my new blog. its not going to be a pro ana blog its going to be a recovery blog.

http://neverenough-a-newme.blogspot.com/2011/01/new-me.html

and i just want to say thank you to all the girls and good friends who commented on my last post you girls reminded me why i loved blogger so much. i love you girls thank you

xoxo S

to long

i've been gone for to long.  i've been trying to do a lot in my life. i've been trying to be healthy and do good for my self. that is why i have been gone for a long time. i'm not sure why i'm posting this i doubt anyone cares about this blog. and truthfully i feel i've lost my will to write in here. i'm forcing every word, grasping and sentiences that dont even fell like mine.  so i went to another treatment, spent Christmas away. and cried more than i though i could. at the moment i feel i was worth the pain, but in a week or two i mite feel differently. i'm fat to my standers skinny to others. 108.31 pounds and counting every day. i eat 4 meals and 2 snacks a day. i hate every bite. but i'm good. and felt like i needed to say this so anyone who cared(i doubt there is any) would know. so now you know and i know i feel like i have nothing to say. i mite post some more soon but i find it hard to keep writing here. it reminds me of when i am very bad and very sick.

well thats all i guess. and i love you girls that helped me through the hard days, i love you and i'm sorry i abandoned you

lots of love S