18 calories!!

i despise my body. its vile and broken! i hate how it doesn't sleep! i hate how it jiggles!...sorry random but true!

i went swimming today with my friend and my brother! it was so fun. i love feeling weightless.  my friend kept hitting on my brothers girlfriend. i know it petty but it made me jealous. shes totally gorges, shes tiny and skinny. shes healthy looking, and she has great boobs. i hate her for how she can look healthy and happy. why can't i be like that? why do i have to starve my self !! she is a bit chubby though... she weighs at least 15 more pounds than me.

i hate how mean i can be.

still not eating solids!!

only tea and broth......I'll be double digit soon.

D2

vanilla tea(6)

1/4 cup meso broth(12)  

18 calories!!!!!!!!!!

work out

walk to gym(25)

2 hour slow walk up hill(200)

walk home(25)

my work out just about killed me!

i've been so tired lately i think i'll take my meds to night

thank you for all your nice comment. they really mean a lot to me

lots of love S