"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
—
Marilyn Monroe

low cal meals

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

not a good day

cows gone she ran outside about 30 minutes ago and she hasnt shown up. i'm hoping she'll come back i really wanted to keep her.

last night i went to the gym and sprained my ankle it really hurts!!

today has really just been all around bad. i ate way to much and i cant even work out to burn the cals. so guess what i did to get rid of the food? i purged and took laxys. i'm stupid. i keep looking at myself in the mirror, and i hate it i hate the way i look. i hate that i look sick, and i hate the way i look fat. i hate it.

so i was taking forever to rite this and cow showed up for food and water then she left again. yay

todays food intake:
B: the white of a hard boiled egg(15) green tea(5)=20
L: 1 cup of meso broth(48) 8 pieces of tofu(80) 1 cup of wild rice (164)=292
total cal 312

i'm a pig!!!

for dinner i' gonna try to have
1/4 cup of Campbell's chicken noodle soup(35)
2 1/2 lemon cucumbers (5)
40 cal

3 comments:

  1. aww little cow :) hope she sticks around! don't get yourself down about your calories - they're so low! i envy your control. keep smiling xx

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  2. Awww, I hope she comes back! Let us know when she returns.
    And you are definitely NOT a pig! You're lovely, and you have brilliant control.
    Hang in there, gorgeous.
    <3

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  3. Oh no! You better get that little scamper! ;)

    You're intake today was phenomenal, don't beat yourself up for it!

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