"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
Marilyn Monroe

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Friday, October 1, 2010


I HATE YOU STUPID ASS OF A DAD!  god really i hate you. i'm currently hiding in my room from the evil binge monster. because as it so happens there is a burger and sweets sitting on the table for me rite now! and if i haven't told you guys i suffer from a serious sweet tooth. when i was little i used to sneak into the kitchen and eat spoonfuls of sugar. and rite now on that evil table theres a bag of candy, two cupcakes(red velvet) homemade, pumpkin pie(all homemade!!)  and a cheese burger with bacon and fries, also sweet tea! really dad fuck you really! i just had to wake up to this. i want to die. ok calm down. breath, breath, breath. i don't need them i'm going to calmly walk into the kitchen and make a cup of warm green tea(5) then i'm going into the bathroom and starting a warm bath. i'll read and do school work, then i'll walk to the gym and work out until i wanna pass out. then i'll work out some more! so when i get home i'll just fall on my bed and sleep. ok thats my plan and thats what i'll do! i dont need food i need exercise thats all. i will not gain. i will not gain. i will not gain!!!! ok breath i have successfully calmed myself down.

so thank you zette  for making me feel awesome! and mentioning my on your blog i feel like a celebrity. really i love you girl.

i have 25 followers now! whoohoo! i feel blessed really i love all you girls, you help me get out of bed in the morning. stay strong lovely lady's you can do anything you put your mind to.

lots of love S xoxo

thinspo. Halloween how do you want to look in your costume?

again how do you want to look in your costume?


  1. that sucks so bad.. I understand your pain, it's so hard to lose weight and it seems like everyone is trying to stuff us with food and fat. And the worst part is they think they're being nice and don't understand how what they're doing is so so horrid. My sweet lovely, you're so strong <3 you are such an inspiration, I'll make some green tea and we'll drink together today, united in our quest against this fat world that doesn't understand our pain

  2. I just found your blog because of zette and I have to say, you are amazing girl. At the moment I'm doing my workout and I just had to pause for a minute and then I read your blog. You are such an inspiration, it made me smile.
    Best wishes,

  3. you're doing so well. i just had to share your progress. everybody should be following you. that's quite a bit to turn down. i'm so happy for you for pulling through. have fun working out. i hope you've found workout music. stay strong, darling. so so so proud of you. if it makes me a creeper to save your pictures, i'm a creeper.

  4. you can do it hun!!
    hide away from the evil...
    love ya!
    stay strong

  5. ugghh that totally sucks! i really hate it when people buy me food because i feel *so* guilty if i don't eat it, and i feel horrible if i do eat it! my boyfriend will sometimes bring me starbucks or donuts for breakfast trying to be nice but it just weighs me down and i feel sooo fat all day long.

    good luck! you're doing great!


  6. I hate it when that happens! Well done for managing to calm yourself down <3 I'm useless at doing it. I feel so guilty. I have to keep telling myself that I didn't ask for it so I shouldn't feel bad... but yeah >.<

    Great thinspo too! Although it's kinda obvious how much photoshopping has happened in the last one on the skinny lady, lol... I'm in love with the Poison Ivy (I think it's her) costume, and the lady in it is rather gorgeous too, lmao.

    Much love <3

  7. ugh that sucks. just breathe and remember what you want to achieve - you can ignore that pile of lard on the table!! good luck xx

  8. Oh my gosh! Your house is always filled with the most amazing foods, ever! Your willpower is truly amazing. You're such an inspiration!!! <3

    Much love.

  9. i've woken up to something exactly like that. and it was my dad who did it so I know how you feel. haha stay strong!! don't let the evil food monster get to you!

  10. Awww, sucks about the dad stuff! It isn't fair when things are just messed up like that.
    But, good news: you have lots of followers, AND a great blog! Keep posting!