so yesterday i went to a family birthday party for my little cousin who is only 10, shes like the cutes thing ever. anywho i over heard her telling a friend she wants to start on a diet. what the fuck? i had to bite my lip to stop from sobing. shes 10!!! and shes nothing but bones as it is! why would she want to diet? so then i got it in my mind that it was my fauly(it is) so when we ate i sat next to her and had 4 pieces of pizza and ice cream and buffalo wings(at leat 3,000 cal) and i kept giving her food. but then when we left i sat in the bathroom sobbing and puking my guts out. i puked untill nothing but yellow watery stuff came up. and then i puked some more.
no wonder my cousin felt fat and wanted to diet. i am a horrible role model
i wont ever have kids util this sickness is gone!
so then i thought maybe i should try to get better(?)
now i am so confused i dont know what i want to do. i want to die!
yesterdays cal intake
B: none(fed it to the puppy)
L: 4 pieces of pizza(2,000) rounded up
D: 3 buffalo wings(210)
S: 1 scoop of ice cream(600) rounded up
total cal 2,810
todays cal intake
B: persimmon(20) the rest i fed to the puppy
L: persimmon(20) left over chop suey(400) rice(200)
D: i haven had it yet... i hope its small
total cal intake 640
and i went to the gym for an hour to day
1 hour on treadmill at 12 speed (300)
run to gym(50) run home(50)
then i did 2 hours of zumba and ti boa (300) i dont really know
also K i love you. your so smart and cool and your blog is so bad ass. you idea is awesome!
now something cute for you, the last one is the puppy