"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
Marilyn Monroe

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Thursday, September 16, 2010

how hard would it be

to kill myself?

all it would take is the rest of my sleeping pills(30ish)

and a hot bath.

i'd just go to sleep in a warm beth.

how nice

i'd finally get some rest, some rest from this eating problem. rest from everybody.

how nice, how peaceful and resting.

i could do it at night with the window open and the night hugging me.


  1. WHATTT. Don't even write about that.
    I'm always here if you need to talk. You have all the support you could ever need. But I dont understand what you mean. I feel like that sometimes. It'll get better.
    XX Sarah.

  2. don't even think about it! i can't speak for others in your life but we would all be devastated. we have faith in you and you WILL be happy. please stay strong - for yourself and for us! xx

  3. That is a beautiful and somewhat romanticised way to die. I also would probably go like that if i got to that point. But suicide is not a good way to go darling. You have so much life to live. So many people would miss you especially us here. Keep your head up girlie because things will get better. you just have to head in the right direction. Stay strong. Xo