"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
Marilyn Monroe

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Saturday, September 18, 2010

lazy ass

well first of all, i went to the doctors and it went really well. she was a new doctor i haven't seen before. she gave me a new sleeping pill, a pill for my RLS. and she told me i didnt need to take anti depressants anymore!!! i love her. so hopefully my med will be kicking in soon and i'll finally get some rest.

so i laid in bed tell 12 in the afternoon got up ate and went and laid back on the coach. its now 4 and i've been laying around all day. i really haven't done anything. it mite be because of my new meds, or its because i'm a fat lazy cow. i've gained!!!! its disgusting.

i now weigh 103 pounds again. i'm hoping its because i'm on my period. witch i hope ends soon i've been having killer cramps!! i hate it


  1. Sometimes one has a harder road to travel than others,do not underestimate your strength,in living in the now. I sense you are a clever girl, who is smart and kind. Do not worry to much about tomorrow. Perhaps try for one day to look outward,talk to others,do stuff,walk around,go to a movie,etc.don't think about yourself at all. I have found that life is always streaming towards one,and to find a balance in the things that you let into your mind and the things that you do not is a bit tricky, I sometimes say, (when life is getting a bit hectic) "All is well in my world" it really works, for me. cheers Marie

  2. its great that you dont need the anti depressants anymore and things will get better it'll just take some time getting used to and hey weight always goes up during "that time of the month" :)
    but it'll all be bac to normal soon babe