"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
Marilyn Monroe

low cal meals

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

not a good day

cows gone she ran outside about 30 minutes ago and she hasnt shown up. i'm hoping she'll come back i really wanted to keep her.

last night i went to the gym and sprained my ankle it really hurts!!

today has really just been all around bad. i ate way to much and i cant even work out to burn the cals. so guess what i did to get rid of the food? i purged and took laxys. i'm stupid. i keep looking at myself in the mirror, and i hate it i hate the way i look. i hate that i look sick, and i hate the way i look fat. i hate it.

so i was taking forever to rite this and cow showed up for food and water then she left again. yay

todays food intake:
B: the white of a hard boiled egg(15) green tea(5)=20
L: 1 cup of meso broth(48) 8 pieces of tofu(80) 1 cup of wild rice (164)=292
total cal 312

i'm a pig!!!

for dinner i' gonna try to have
1/4 cup of Campbell's chicken noodle soup(35)
2 1/2 lemon cucumbers (5)
40 cal


  1. aww little cow :) hope she sticks around! don't get yourself down about your calories - they're so low! i envy your control. keep smiling xx

  2. Awww, I hope she comes back! Let us know when she returns.
    And you are definitely NOT a pig! You're lovely, and you have brilliant control.
    Hang in there, gorgeous.

  3. Oh no! You better get that little scamper! ;)

    You're intake today was phenomenal, don't beat yourself up for it!